Thursday, June 24, 2010


I really hate life sometimes.

First, I worked so hard over the last year to bring my average up to be admitted to Carleton.

Ended up only being a 2.85.
(Fyi: GPA was wrong, 2.85 is the readjusted average)

Was denied.

Then, wrote a pretty kick ass letter advocating why I should be admitted.

That worked.

The next logical step was to apply for OSAP.

I got a letter. Saying I owed them 3410$ because of ...well, I'm not quite sure. And any attempts to reach OSAP over the last few days have resulted in being on hold for hours or else a straight out busy signal.

HOW the HELL am I going to come up with that kind of money by September? When I'm not working? If I can't get finances, I can't go.

I've never wanted Conan O'Brien to follow me on twitter more than I do right now.

Monday, June 21, 2010


I have a confession to make: I take off my engagement ring to do dishes.

I know I know, I broke the #1 rule of engaged chicks: NEVER TAKE THE RING OFF(!!!).

Sometimes it's days before I remember to put it back on....but sometimes? Keith finds it, brings it to me and puts it on my finger.

And OH. That feeling when he does?

It's like I said yes all over again.

Friday, June 18, 2010

All edumacated!

Last night was my graduation ceremony. I'm officially a college graduate!

Unfortunately, all the pictures that Keith took during the ceremony turned out super blurry. I honestly look like I have two heads mashed together in one. Am so disappointed....and need a better camera, obviously.

But! It was a cute ceremony and I don't regret going. My mom, sister, her boyfriend, Harry & Keith all came with me and supported me...walking that stage is NERVE-WRACKING. Omg.

but OH! Best part - as people were walking across the stage a bunch of people got huge woops and cheers and some people didn't (we were supposed to hold all applause til the end). And you know, you want to be in the former category, because how lame is that?

AND I WAS. I've NEVER had that happen before! A bunch of people in the audience cheered and Becky's boyfriend let out a big loud "GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SARAH!" Made my night!

This morning Mom & I are going out to Cora's for breakfast and then going to Carleton to meet with the student disability centre as well as dropping off my OSAP documentation. Onward to the next challenge in life!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


Do you remember my ex-boyfriend from high school? The one that I dated for 7 months in Grade 10, went to prom with, found out later that he had a ring in his pocket but never asked? That one?

Found out on Monday he actually got married about a year ago.

We were surprisingly innocent in our dating. He was no pre-martial sex, and I had lost the v-card before him but was totally iffy on the whole doing-it-again thing. Besides, I was carrying around a whole bunch of guilt from that encounter, because hey, I'm Catholic, and its a little something we're known for.

So we groped and kissed, and that was pretty much it. But I still got to get acquainted with his - ahem - you know.

And I would say "I love you" and mean it and talk about our future and everything, but in the back of my mind would think : I hope we never get married BECAUSE I CAN'T DEAL WITH YOUR TINY PENIS for the rest of my life!

(Yes, I was terribly shallow when I was 16).

(And terribly practical).

And while I wish them all the best and everything - still.


Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Will always be.

Dear Mom;

It's your birthday today. The first birthday you won't turn a year older.

We all miss you. A lot. We miss your voice, your caring compassion, your frequent laugh. We miss the funny faces you'd pull, your joy for life, your joy for your family, for us. I think of you daily, still, most often just before falling into sleep.

I hope you're doing okay, whenever you are. I like to think of you as being in each tree leaf, each blade of grass, every raindrop; in the very molecules of air we breathe.

That way, whenever I take a breath, you're right there with me. Forever and for always.


Monday, June 14, 2010

Love you forever.

She's my baby sister. I protect her, worry about her, love her fiercely and give her advice if she needs it (and sometimes when she doesn't!).

She is so beautiful it makes your heart ache, not just physical beauty, but everything she encompasses within her being.
She's fantastically quirky - she used to believe she could talk to bees and run around on her hands and knees pretending to be a horse (neighs included!). She has a natural affinity for animals; she plans on becoming vet assistant with a grooming business on the side. In grade 9 she took up riding for awhile and I've always been in awe of her natural ability and ease in that pursuit. In grade 10 she took up competitive swimming and excelled in it; she made it to WOSSA & Regionals. She spent a year in Brazil on Rotary Exchange for grade 11 and is still fluent in Portuguese. She's funny, smart, caring, sporty, a goofball, fun-loving, and nothing short of amazing. She's done so much and she's only turning 21.
Growing up, it was just her and me for long stretches. Our older brother is 9 years older than I am, and he moved out at 17. From the time she was 6, it's just been me and her. We moved a lot when we were younger - and then when my parents split up we got to spend 6 weeks of the summer, just her and I, with my dad.

We had the worst case of sibling rivalry, way beyond what could be considered normal. We both competed for our mom's attention, while perceiving the other as the winner. I thought it damaged us beyond fixing, but I am so blessed to have her in my life now, living in the same city as I. It's afforded us the opportunity to build a relationship as adults, something I recognize as a rare opportunity to be granted a second chance.

When she moved down here, I was reminded, once again - that no matter what happens in life, your family is yours. And your history together is special and unique, and whatever happens and whomever you decide to share your life with, nothing can change that. We will always be sisters, and now I hope we shall always be friends.

Friday, June 11, 2010


Remember when I was bemoaning the fact that everything was just so far away, it'll never happen, waaaaaaaaaah?

Like all things on a timeline - it simultaneously feels like it passed by in a blink of an eye while also seemingly took forever.

A really long blink of an eye, in other words. In super slo-mo, if you will. But I like the way Amber over at Girl with the Red Hair looks at it - it seems SO CLOSE when you look at it this way:

Next week: Thursday is my college graduation ceremony. Irrationally I am worried about tripping as I walk across the stage. I'm not even wearing heels.

Next month: Is finally - FINALLY - my surgery. It's compounded by the fact that I actually start on a high protein, low calorie meal replacement June 26th to shrink my liver before surgery, and June 22, 25 & 29 I have doctors appointments - the 25th is a 4 hour long class on the lifestyle I'll have to maintain after surgery, and I also have to fit in an EKG & bloodwork within those two weeks. Yikes! That's a ton of doctors appointments, yo.

Next year: As you already know, I got into Carleton!! (Still can't say that without squeeing, sorry). I also received an entrance bursary to be put towards my tuition - less debt at this point is always a good thing. I'm sure it'll be filled with amazing opportunities - not to mention I'll be adjusting to life after surgery and losing weight rapidly each month. My FYSM group is going to think I'm sick or something. Oh well. I can't decide on a minor - and in my typical fashion I want to overload myself as much as possible. Double major with a mention francais AND co-op option? WHY YES, DON'T MIND IF I DO. Eeeek.

So what are you looking forward to - next week, next month & over the coming year?

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Little sis all growned up!

We celebrated my sisters' birthday a few days early yesterday. Her wish was to take both puppies to Conroy Pit & then have KFC and DQ ice cream cake for a late lunch afterwards. (Her birthday is this Saturday, she turns 21!).

So we granted her request:

Happy Birthday sis!

Wishing you nothing but the best for the year to come!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Drumroll ....

After hearing that I was denied, I submitted a letter of appeal - pointing out that before my learning disability was diagnosed, I either failed or got D's and C's. After? A's and B's.
IT EFFING WORKED! Carleton has offered me a spot in the BA General Law program for fall 2010! I am beyond excited right now.
A few caveats: I can apply for Honours once I have successfully completed courses at Carleton with Honours standing (whatever that means, I'm sure I'll figure it out), I do not qualify for transfer credits (I didn't expect to), and I have to register with the disability center on campus (expected that).
Now please excuse me while I go jump and dance around my apartment like a maniac. YAY!!!