Big Bang Theory

I love this song, the band that sings it, and I absolutely adore the TV show it's a theme song for. (I seriously sit there and giggle for a straight half hour. It's that good).



In other not so great news, this makes it day 11 and I'm starting to freak right the fuck out. *sigh* And the pain is unbearable - today I took 12 extra-strength tylenol just to get through my 8 hour shift. Not good.

Speaking of that, ONE MORE SHIFT, BAY-BEE! I'm going to be so bored next week, but I picked up a few books - The Hour I First Believed by Wally Lamb, Certain Girls by Jennifer Weiner and Comfort Food by Kate Jacobs (which I've already finished).

I'm never good at conclusions, so I'm just going to say - watch the video, hope you enjoy it - I'm off to download some music because of course I lost it all when my harddrive crapped out. Ugghh.

I'm in love

This is my desktop - isn't it just flat-out cute??

Seeing green.

I'm talking to my cousin right now and I'm trying my hardest to squash these feelings of complete jealousy.

She's a year younger than I am and I just found out she wants to be married in 2011 - either August or September. And that her dad will probably foot the majority of the bill.

Contrast that to my situation; I want to be married in 2011 too, in October, and Keith and I will be paying for the entire thing ourselves.

She just seems to have it so easy in everything. Her parents are paying for her university, while I have to borrow from the government. Her fiance just sold his house and so they plan on building an entire new house in a year or so.

God, I sound so petty. And don't get me wrong, I AM genuinely happy for her. I AM.
I just wish I wasn't so jealous of how easy she has it. And I wish I wasn't the kind of person TO get jealous about it all.

Sigh. I'm a horrible, selfish, petty person. And jealous. Don't forget about that.

day 21; 3rd weigh in

Only lost 3.5 pounds (1.6 kg) this week, and no inches. My total is 20.5 pounds (9.3 kg) in 3 weeks.

However, I'm still on this 'period' like thing and I feel incredibly crampy/bloated and I bet you anything I'm retaining water like crazy.
Hopefully next week this problem won't be there and I'll have a big drop in the scales again.

Fingers crossed.

I QUIT!

I gave my notice today. As of next Sunday, I will no longer work at Wendy's.

Such a relief! I hate the job and have since day one. It's amazing I lasted nearly 7 months; so many times I came to work and just wanted to shout "I QUIT!" and storm out of there.

I made a stupid rookie mistake on Facebook the other day with my status saying something along the lines of the "M" word and my aunt (who lives with my mom) saw it and emailed me about it. Woops. I told her to keep a lid on it since it's not official yet. Must remember: Family on Facebook, don't put anything you don't want to be emailed about! YA!

Hopefully me quitting my job won't affect our mini-vacation plans to go to Toronto for the last weekend in May. I really want/need to just get away for a bit. We both do. It most likely won't - I'll have my osap by then as well as I still get 1 more paycheque from Wendy's.

Besides, by next week, I'll probably be hired on as a cashier at Wal-Ma.rt - I stupidly applied during inventory week so I've had my 2 interviews but they haven't had time to check my references yet. But now that inventory week is over they should be able to get that ball rolling.
Hopefully.

Oh, one more thing; and this might be TMI so if you don't like talking about monthly girly stuff, stop reading now -
Kay, this week I've been having what I think is my period - problem is, I'm still finishing off my pill pack! I've never had this happen before; I start my week of pills on Tuesdays, and usually I finish the 21 days of active drugs and then my period arrives the next Saturday. So should I count the first day of bleeding as day 1 for this cycle or was it just 'breakthrough bleeding'? (but I thought breakthrough bleeding was different?) If I count this as starting a new cycle, then that means my last cycle only lasted 19 days! Something tells me that's really not good!
(oh, did I ever tell you that the doctor with this weight-thing asked me if I had PCOS because of my incredibly high insulin resistance? Gulp.)

day 12: weigh-in

I'm trying not to let this blog become a once a week thing but last week was so busy!

Weight Loss: 9 pounds (4.1 kg)
Inches: 1.5 off my waist

Total (12 days):
17 pounds (7.7 kg) and 2.5 inches.

Also, I finally got the student assistance restriction lifted this week and so I've applied plus registered for full-time studies, starting in May. Such a relief to get that done!

thinking about more school (again, and again, and again: a theme revisited)

I'm flirting with the idea of continuing my post-secondary education come NEXT fall with starting a BA in Law & a minor in History. I realized this week that if I'm going to pursue this seriously, I have to start taking the steps now in order to be ready (academically and financially) to apply by this winter.

My mom thinks its a good idea - she pointed out that during economy 'downtime', staying in school is the ideal thing to do, so that when the economy picks up again, you're ready for it with more schooling and will have a better time finding a job than if I left school within the next year.

I figured out today that if I decide to pursue an LLB, I'll be thirty by the time I'm done. THIRTY.

yuckyuckdoublegagyuck.

day 6: first weigh in

I lost 8 pounds (3.6kg) this week and an inch off my waist. My blood pressure also went from 140/80 to 127/75.

I'd write more but since I closed last night (4-11pm) and opened this morning (6:30-2pm) and just got home fifteen minutes ago...*yawn* zzzz.

(Oh yeah, did I mention that I recieved an 81% "unofficially" on my Statement of Claim? WOOT WOOT)

day 3: self-talk

Time: 20 minutes

Calories burned: 148.46*

Shakes taste fantastic and I'm not even the slightest bit hungry, much to my surprise.

However, I miss chewing, and I still want to put food in my face. I have to keep reminding myself on a constant basis that I'm not hungry, so there's absolutely no reason to eat.

Rinse, lather, repeat.

*this might not seem like alot, but I'm burning 16% of what I ingest in a day.

A to the Q

On my last entry, Heather asked:
Do they expect you to do a certain amount of exercise on the program as well? Have you set yourself personal goals of weight and rewards for reaching them? How did you find/enrol for this? I'm curious to learn more.

If you already do daily excerise, they recommend continuing what you already do, but it's not time to start anything new. (I have a whole list of stuff that's not allowed, including "sky-diving, horseback riding, diving alone, etc.") However, I plan on "cheating" a bit and start incorporating 20 minutes of playing DDR into my day.

I haven't set myself personal goals of weight, persay. There's not much I can do to lose the weight faster than what I'm already doing, and to me, thats enough. Right now my weekly goal is to limit my Diet Sprite to three cans a day. I have to drink 300mL of water per shake, plus an additional 3 litres of liquid a day.

Bringing up rewards is interesting, because in the past, my reward system was based on food. I don't know how I'll reward myself now, but I guess I'll have to figure that out.

I found out about this when I was going for my assessment for an eating disorder - I was clicking around on the Ottawa Hospital website and stumbled across it. You need a doctors referral (with fasting blood tests) plus a consult with the clinic. As well, before you start product you need to do another fasting blood test plus ECG. Find more info here.

In other news, I just finished my first shake. Not bad. (I can't believe I just said that).

day 1

I start product today. I'm a bit scared, especially when I return to work on Thursday. I'm just anxious to get into ketosis.

Expect alot of my blog entries in the future to simply state

"I'm hungry."
"I'm really hungry."
"I WANT TO EAT YOUR FACE."